Writing this post is really hard, because I have been what they call a pessimist lately. Not about life or traveling but about teaching.
Teaching is SO HARD.
I literally dread it most days. Waking up on the weekdays is incredibly difficult because teaching just drains me. Physically, and emotionally. You see, I am really talented. I am good at everything. I am not saying this to sound full of myself, but I really am good at most things. I am efficiently good with sports, arts, writing, school, leadership, ect. I am just usually good at everything ok? But I am not good at teaching, I have my days, but most days I suck. Probably due to the fact that I don't have a teaching degree and I am working with little to no training, but I suck. So it's literal torture for me to spend 4 hours a day doing something I know I am bad at ya know? It's a real self esteem hitter. So the whole teaching aspect of my teaching abroad is super crappy, but the abroad part is so kick ass that it counteracts the teaching, science ya dig?
So, moving on to the abroad part so I can stop crying and shoving my face with Oreos thinking about having to teach in 12 hours.
This weekend we went to Bangkok, it was WILD. I mean TBH I didn't really love Bangkok. My favorite part of travelling is feeling like I am in a foreign country and Bangkok felt so westernized. But, it had it's gems. So we took a train to get to Bangkok and it was insane. The train was sooooooo sketchy. First off, I couldn't see out of my window due to the mold that was covering the entire window. Also, it was just not very stable. I literally took out my journal and wrote this whole entry called, "If I die on this train I want everyone to know..." That's how scared I was. Also, I never know when to get off on public transportation because they never say anything, they just stop. I just look like I lost puppy and eventually a Thai person asks to see my ticket and says yes or no. Shout out to all my Thai homies out here looking out for the tall white girl.
Finally we made it and took a Tuk Tuk to our hostel, which was adorable by the way. It was cat themed and had cat murals painted everywhere. The owner at our hostel was so nice and hand drew us a map of where to find the best food in town and it was so adorable. It was at the end of this super scary alleyway but it was the best damn spicy papaya salad I have ever had, so much so that I had it both nights.
The next morning we woke up at the crack of dawn(5am for those of you that don't know when that is) and went to the floating markets. I loved the floating markets so much. People say that the floating markets are overrated but I strongly disagree with that. I think I just love markets, and then put me on water and in a canoe and like I'm even happier ya know? Add to that a lady handing me Mango's and sticky rice on a plate for less than $1 then I was just basically in Heaven. Later that night we went to Khaosan Road which was a dream come true for this backpacker. I LOVED IT and it lived up to all of my expectations. It was sooooo cool. It's just this famous street in Thailand that's known for just being crazy. We went to the night market where I ate a Scorpion and had some amazing street food soup. Yeah, I ate a Scoprion, it was chill chill cool cool.
The next day we went to Temple of The Dawn and I met up with an old friend, Kenny. He has been my big brothers best friend for years. It was way rad to see him and meet some of his friends. The temple wasn't to shabby either. After that we went to the famous Chatuchak Market, AKA THE BIGGEST MARKET IN THE WORLD. It was completely overwhelming. It has over 9,000 shops and it was just alot. The good news is I got most my gifts for friends back home there, the bad news is my social anxiety almost killed me. It was one of those things that you have to do because you can't miss that opportunity but also you kind of hate the whole thing ya know?
Overall Bangkok was really fun. Never going back, but still super great.
We are getting ready and planning our two week vacation, and I am so dang excited. We are going to island hop in the southern islands and then head to Bali. I cannot even tell you how stoked I am to go back to Bali, like I almost cried of joy. Also, I won't have to teach for 2 weeks and I can't even imagine how much that is going to boost my self esteem.
Traveling is so great ya know. I am really loving it. I love just being in a different place. I am becoming so comfortable with the idea of solo traveling. I also love living here. I love telling people, "oh no I live in Phitsanulok" The locals get so excited when you tell them that you actually live here. It's great. I think that this week I am going to go get a few tattoos in my town with my friend Pat. I seriously like adore her. It's going to be so weird when I am back home, like everything here is so cheap. Literally I was thinking about how I have to fill my gas tank for like $40 in America, and I was like Hannah that's 80 smoothies in Thailand. Like WHY IS AMERICA SO DAMN EXPENSIVE. Can't handle it.
Also I would like to give a shout out to my group. They do a really good job at putting up with me. I am so lucky to have the group I have. They are so chill and we just vibe. Overall I am so happy that I made the decision to move to Thailand. It's been really amazing and a real growing experience.
ONLY 77 days left folks. So whoever is throwing my surprise welcome home party I get home May 3rd, unless I decide to extend my trip, which might happen. Stay tuned.
P.S I miss my mom
Hostel: Cazz Hostel in Bangkok
Transportation: Skytrain and GRAB
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